Remember

I thought i would start this year right. But i messed up the whole January of this brand new year. 

I've got my GP and communication paper this month. I've less than 2weeks to get things done. 

 I'm still getting over post-breakup heartaches.

I'm feeling this emptiness in my life.

Feel like i've no friends or anyone to turn to.

Feel like i've lost my bestfriend.

I feel like i'm the greatest fucktard in this world.

I feel that i'm the greatest dumbass to believe him and what he said.

I pity girls. Cuz guys are potential heartbreakers, cheaters, liars, fuckers.

I can't get to sleep each night. 

I'm smoking my life away.

I've to cry and pray to God each night for a better tomorrow.

I end up getting drunk and get nasty hangover..

I wanna get back to church but something's holding me back.

People thinks i'm cool, i'm happy, i'm the bubbly and funny clown they see in school, at work.

They have no idea what shit i'm going through.

It's not easy being me.

People judge, i hate that. But i can't change that. Who don't judge?

I wanna get myself back on track.

I want to get rid these dark eye ring and eye bags.

I wanna start living right.

I want happy days like the past. 

I want to spend time doing nothing with my bestfriend.

I don't wanna have to worry.

I don't wanna cry.

I don't wanna be who i am now.