Remember

Times flies so quickly, it's almost the end of the year 2009. I have known him for 7months, coming 8month.Nothing impressive to some of you. It may seemed short but i feel like i've known him for long. I still remember when we first started. We would quarrel 5days in a row. We would yell at each other. We would take turns waking up early making breakfast and to each other's house. We would always be on phone, when i'm on my way to school, when i'm on my way home, when i'm in the washroom bathing with that loudspeaker on, when we are almost asleep at late night. We would go to every places and anywhere that's fun, we would take lots of pictures, we would laugh together, we would cry together. He would always take the initiative to text me after a heated argument, he would tell me "i'll do whatever it takes to make you happy"..

Somehow, i'm feeling distant from all these. Tonight's conv with him is a wake up call for me. Maybe i'm too naive. Placing too much hopes,expectation on him, on us. And maybe i should'nt sacrifice so much. I've done too much, maybe i should put all these to a stop. Fullstop.

All i wanted is a long term and serious r/s. But in times like this, i wanna give up, people would ask me to forget about making up with you and move on, sometimes i feel so tired and i just wanna cry like that, i would even just break up in tears while listening to songs when i'm on the train and bus. But i guess you'll nv be that soft-hearted anymore..not that guy that i've loved and known before.

Yes, I miss the old you.

I can't imagine what's life without you and i never wanna think of that cause i know it sucks...

It'll just be like a empty room with just me picking up the shattered bits of memories, trying to fix it to a whole knowing it'll never gonna be perfect.